I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t thought about some form of weight loss surgery many times over the years. Gastric surgery always seemed like a “last resort” to me, instead I’d tell myself to just try one more diet. One more diet… and then another one. By the age of 29 I’ve tried pretty much every diet you can think of – and I’ve spent a lot of money, not just on diets, but on healthcare related to my weight (reflux, PCOS etc). I’ve written a little bit about my past issues in my hypnotherapy background post here.
On Thursday last week I saw my Doctor regarding a random twitching in my right index finger, and she asked me how my weight loss was going. She sees me often enough to know that I’ve been the same size (give or take 10kgs) for the last 12 years – so there’s no “yeah it’s going fine” with her. I told her that, despite currently attending hypnotherapy, I’d put on 7 of the 10kgs I’d lost during my trip to South America, even though I’d been trying a high protein low carb diet and I’d been going to the gym. My problem, as always, was with portion control and binge eating – I just can’t seem to control myself. I have the will power of a three year old!!!
My Doctor asked me whether I had thought about stomach surgery before; I told her that I had. She said me that she wanted me to do it, that it’s what’s best for my health – I have fatty liver and (thanks to my PCOS) a possibility of diabetes in my future – and she wrote me a referral for Doctor Charlie Mosse at Canberra Bariatric on the spot.
I rang the next day and am booked in to the centre for a consult on the 10th of April, and will be attending an information session (hosted by the Doctors) to be held on the 7th. The receptionist told me that it would be about 6 weeks for my actual surgery, and that recovery would be a few weeks – this would take me in to the time I am supposed to be in Europe and it would mean that I won’t be well enough to travel – well, I might be, but I can’t guarantee it.
I’m also worried about the flight. Being my weight makes it really hard to fly – and given the length of the flight to Europe, I’d rather get my surgery done and then try again in a year or two. Also, let’s face it, I am annoying at music festivals – sore feet, wanting to sit down all the time etc – another reason I’d like to lose weight and then try again later. If I fly to Europe at the weight I am now, and then go to Glastonbury – I’m not going to have a good time.
And then if I wait until after Europe, there’s still my best friend’s wedding in September (for which I am a Bridesmaid, so best not to be recovering from surgery) and that would push the date back to October, and I don’t want to wait that long. Now that I know it’s happening, I just can’t wait to do it and re-start my life.
So – I’m no longer going to Europe in the middle of the year. I am upset about that, but the excitement I feel about being healthy outweighs the sadness tenfold. It’s full steam ahead with the stomach surgery. I won’t know what exact date my surgery is, or even which type of surgery I am getting, until the 10th.
I’m going to keep going with my hypnotherapy too – because despite having a smaller stomach, I’ll still have the habits that lead to my overeating in the first place, and those need to stop. Even after I got the news, I started asking everyone to come out to dinner with me so I could eat as much food as I can before the surgery!
I want to blog about my experience, because I’ve found that reading other people’s blogs has helped reassure me that this is the best option for me – and the results I’ve seen from others has made me optimistic about my own outcomes.
I’ve also started writing up some FAQ of questions that I would like to ask, so that after the surgery I can answer these for someone else – these will be posted a few weeks after my surgery. I’ll also be keeping stats with these posts, to see my progress.
My current weight is 118.9kg
My current dress size is 24